26 May 2006

It's Been So Long

I know its been a while but I have alot going on.

My sister has been spending her days here the last couple of weeks because she is not trusted enough to be left at my parents house by herself. She has been crack free for 12 days. I have not gotten my hopes of to high that she is going to stay this way because you can see the sruggle behind her eyes. As I have stated before even the "normal" sister that is not addicted to crack is not east to get along with. She has so may issues that are drug related. She really believes that the world should cater to her and her every need. She believes that she is the most beautiful person in the world. She spends much time in the mirror flipping her hair around. I know it may sound mean but she drives me crazy. Everytime we go out of the house, which is mostly to the doctors, she steps out to smoke and comes back with stories of how people stop to tell her how great beautiful she is and what a nice smile she has. Frankly she looks like shit. She has been smoking crack and doing god knows what for over two years. Even Angilina Jolie would look like crap after two years of that life style.

This is not the only problem though. She carries on about her "babies." You know the ones my mom has been raising for many many years now. But I think the thing that drives me crazy the most is the fact she keeps hinting around for my mom to get her car, an apartment , and a cell phone. All of things have been given to her over and over again only to be lost to her drug habit. She has time and time againg come to my parents to clean up for a couple of weeks and them into setting her up with promises to do better only to get mixed back up in crack and her old crack friends.

Don't get me wrong I love her and want to her to get her shit togeather but I hate seeing the rollercoaster ride she keeps taking us on.

Ok in other news I am now 33 weeks pregnant. I am hoping to be deliver in 3 to 4 weeks but like Roman I am having to fight every step of the way. The midswives kicked me out last week and into the high risk practice. some thing was said about my placenta but I have no idea what it is because I can't get astraight answer out of anyone. Know I have to do some 24 hour urine test because my blood presure seems to be hight than it should be. Actually it is better know that it is normally so I don;t know what the hell is going on.

Roman's birthday is in about two weeks. I cannot believe he is going to be 1 year old. This year has gone by so fast. I would love to post a picture of him but he ate the UBS cord to my camera so I have to get another one before I can do that.

Well that all for know folks I hope to be able to write again soon. I'll do the best I can.

Until then.


Jay said...

i feel for you for your sis. if you need to talk or need some advice please ask.I HAVE BEEN THERE!

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roman is almost 1 where did last year go?

jenn said...

hey. sorry to hear all that about sis. no wonder your blood pressure is high. call me if you need anything. i'll be back from utah on wednesday...

HotMama said...

Thanks Jay and Jenn